Monday, June 9, 2008

The Life I Want

Very sadly, the long weekend is finished. Although I enjoy my work I really enjoy and look forward to my time off. Thank goodness I am no longer a workaholic. Back in my early twenties I lived around the corner from work where I was the store manager. I shared a house with my assistant manager and both of us were addicted to work and pleasing the boss. It was not unusual for us to be awake at 1am talking about work. I remember one time that we did this and we came up with a brilliant idea so off we went to work and did it - at 1am for goodness sake! My boss loved us of course but I can tell you that in the end we were burnt out and resentful.
I have been thinking about where I want my life to go. I mentioned to a friend yesterday that my faith is wavering but I do not make the time to work on this. I also do not make enough time to improve my health. In fact there are may areas of my life that are not in balance. I wouldn't think that I am alone in this. I am not too good at doing a lot of things well. I find that either I am doing well at work but home is suffering or vice versa. I don't envy those career women high up in the corporate world. Family isn't valued too highly in many big businesses - it is all about the bottom line. How do these women combine motherhood with career? Not too well from what I have seen. Something has to give and for many of these women that I know, it is themselves. They are run raggard and many of them are giving their children absolutely everything except enough time and discipline. In my own personal experience I spend my mornings rushing and nagging and sometimes yelling at my daughter to hurry up. I do not look forward to mornings! Afternoons are spent either at work or rushing through homework and chores. I am over it. And what I have come to realise is that I need to create the life I want rather than just accepting the norm as society expects. Society tells us that we need to work to make more money to have the big house, cars, clothes, tv's etc etc. I am happy to forego many of those things and in their place I would rather have calm mornings, sleep ins with my daughter, breakfast together, fun and games, more visits to the park in the afternoons, cooking together during the day, crafting together happily etc etc. I am making plans to create this life. I will share more with you as it progresses.
Yesterday I spent the day cooking. I think I did this to avoid the sewing! We started the day off with pancakes. E helped me with this and we had a great time - and made a great mess! In this photo you can see my really old frypan. It was my best friends mum's frypan. I used to live with Kate and her mum (Mrs Kelly) and when we all went our separate ways Mrs Kelly left me the frypan because I did not have one. I did buy one but I prefer to cook with this one! And now it has more meaning to me. As you can see, my pancakes are a little sad looking but they tasted great!

For lunch I was going to cook pumpkin soup but the tribe wasn't too keen on this idea so in the end I just roasted some vegies. Now, E doesn't like pumpkin and assumed this was sweet potato which she loves. So we went along with this to see if she would eat it. She did and told me how yummy the sweet potato was lol! I had to tell her the truth... She kept eating it anyway.

I also made a banana cake and choc chip cookies yesterday and then silverside for dinner. I was very tired last night! Today I did not cook a thing. I scrapbooked most of the day.

A thank you card.


A layout - the photo is shocking sorry.


A close up of the layout. This is for a class at the shop during the week.








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