Life Changes

Mmmmm... what a week. I am exhausted mentally, physically and emotionally from it. I found out some things about John (E's dad) this week that I don't like and have asked him to move out. Not sure if I have written much here about our living situation but to cut a long story short, we separated many many years ago but he has been living with us for some time. We get on well enough to live together to raise our daughter and share the load. Not many people get our situation but it has worked for us. I don't tolerate some things though and can not live with him any longer - not even for E's sake (she doesn't need this crap either). As you can imagine, she is devastated and I am worried about her more than me. But the main thing I need to worry about for the short term is earning some money to pay the rent of $370 a week and also to provide our other basic necessities. Although John says he will give us money, I will never again in my life rely on a man to provide for me. It is only in the last year that I have allowed myself to get into this situation of relying on him - never before in the 10+ years I have known him have I done this. I was always very independent and am annoyed at myself that I am not now. Anyway, to say that this week has been emotional is an understatement. Our whole life will change now and while I am trying to look at it as the wonderful opportunity it can be to get my life back, I am also sad that plans and little dreams I had are now no longer achievable. My heart breaks for E too.